It's hard letting go

It's not even time to let go yet and I'm feeling sad.  Miss 14 will move on on Monday.  She has been given a home with a couple who have two other teenage girls that attend the school that she will be attending.  She loved it here, and we loved having her.  Just isn't quite the right time for us and Miss 12.  Moving toward permanency with Miss 12, we need to have her settled so that she takes the process well. We also have a house far too small for two teenagers.  They're sharing a single room at the moment.

In saying that, it's made me realise that we can't just stop at one.  Our house will always be a home for kids who need somewhere to call home.  Be it for a few days, a few weeks or a few years, or forever.  We are looking now at moving.  The sooner the better really.  We are cramped here.  It's hard to keep a house tidy when you have enough stuff for a four bedroom house in a two bedroom house.  It is so much easier to stay put.  But it is so much harder to do for kids what you really want to be doing for them.  It's also much harder to find room to put new purchases.

Not one kid we have had has been 'naughty' for us.  Yeah normal teenage attitude at times - but nothing naughty.  We have had four children with us within the last year...we must be due for a challenge?

No matter who the kid is, i love them and want the best for them. I can't help it.  Miss 14 will still come and visit us once a month as per her transitional agreement, to give time out to her long term caregivers.

Stunned at how fast things went for her.  Miss 12 has been fighting it for nearly a year now to gain some permanency, Miss 14 gets hers 9 days after coming into care.  It is sad her mum let go so easily, but it is nice for her that she can just move on.